Warrior's Journey The magic of Teo, as we affectionately call Teotihuacan, is the energy that imbues the land and pyramids. This site 45 minutes outside of Mexico City was used by the Toltecs thousands of years ago as a University. Today, don Miguel and the Toltec teachers continue the tradition of bringing groups to Teo to learn directly from the ancient, silent knowledge of the stones. Traditionally, we begin in "hell," looking with honesty deep into the ways we have created our own dream based out of fear or scarcity. From this place of awareness we commit to dying to our old dream and embracing the new. We meet and embrace the angel of death, and move through successive layers to release all attachments, from the physical to our thoughts and emotions. With great love we offer all that we are, both positive and negative, to the great mystery, and then reconnect with our own ray of light on top of the pyramid of the sun. Death follows with rebirth and a new clarity. I returned to Teo this January with don Miguel Ruiz, several other teachers, and about sixty students, many new to the Toltec work. The day before everyone arrived, don Miguel called the teachers together and said he wanted two groups to begin at the end of our usual process: on the pyramid of the sun, and go backwards through the traditional process. Always eager for a challenge, both Francis and I volunteered to begin with our groups on the pyramid of the sun. After so many years in Teo of processing people through their fears and into their love, I wondered how to move people from love back into the dream they had created. Due to the domestication process, each of us dreams out of fear and scarcity, with glimpses of love and pure awareness. Could we as a group take heaven and willingly go back into hell? Yes, yes, yes. The magic that arose from our journey backwards through Teo reminded me of the wisdom of the Kabalah. In this ancient system we learn different perspectives of perception. And everything changes depending on how you look. We can see from the human looking up to the divine, or we can be the divine looking down at the human. From the human point of view, death is when we lose the physical body and go back to spirit. From the divine view, death is when we leave the spirit and go into a body. So for our little group of travellers, death meant not letting go of our physical bodies, but becoming human again. The difference was we took on our human form with new awareness and a mission to bring love into all the places in our lives touched by fear. On the first day, on top of the pyramid of the sun, we each connected to our own personal ray of light, our divine soul in a beautiful ceremony. In the days that followed, we strengthened our connection to Spirit, and prepared to take this Divine light back into our human lives. Here are field notes from the Heaven Expansion Project, as we called ourselves: Our path is to remember the truth of who we are, to reconnect to the source of life, which is pure love and compassion. The Heavenly Expansion Project then seeks to expand heaven into hell, to bring compassion to suffering, love to drama, magic to fear. Our mission is to reconnect the Divine with the Child, who is still caught in hell. As warriors, we take on human bodies and venture forward in the spirit of a magical quest. Just like the hero in the Odyssey, we take on this challenge with a sense of adventure, a great patience, a strong heart, and a grand courage. We are not afraid to ask for help from Gods or humans or animals. We know when to rest and when to move with great speed, when to glide silently and when to laugh at our mistakes. We learn without the need to punish or reprimand. The Child in hell believes the songs of that land: you are not good enough. You will be abandoned. You are not loveable. You have to be perfect, just like we want you to be. Love is conditional. Suffering is noble. There is not enough love, money, magic to go around. You will be alone. We take on human forms with delight in our heart and the vision of the reunion of the Divine to the Child: the creation of the Divine Child. We are not whole until we reclaim all of our being, letting the Human be a bridge, a channel between the Divine and the Child. We move forward into our lives, singing the songs of love and laughter to our Child. We walk into hell and dance there, paying attention to all the ways the Child is still hooked into the belief system of fear. And we use all of our tools, from humor to ruthlessness, to coax the child back into the arms of the Divine. To whisper the silent words of remembering into the Child's ear. We pray with all of our hearts that the Child in each human may awaken and step out of the web of beliefs that trap it and block its true light. Once we reclaim the Divine Child, we commit to helping others remember, simply through our love and the twinkle in our eyes.   P.S. The following is a letter from a warrior after he returned to Teo. Great lessons on honesty and intent. .............................................................................. A Letter from a Warrior Hello Eagle friends, I am still processing what I have learned in Teo, and I feel I would benefit by sharing this with you all. A particular block in my emotional expression has cracked, and I am beginning to see all the ways I have ignored my own emotions. I hardly ever let myself express anger or any other "negative" emotion intensely towards another person. Of course, I beat myself up like mad, but I hide a lot of this abuse from my consciousness, so that I can maintain the illusion that I don't have these emotions or the drama that goes with them. Once you start holding in negative emotions, the others can not be expressed so vividly either. At power journeys, I feel the highs, but then I battle not to experience the poison that is released in the aftermath. I realize now why I have experienced so much difficulty relating to people, even to myself. I am aware that this issue relates to my relationship with my parents. I grew up with a lot of resources, but at one point in time, when my parents themselves had a lot of anger flaring, I was taught that my anger was not allowed. I have a sense that this may only be the surface of the wound, but that is where I am at right now. The reason I bring this up is because I have a belief flowing from this situation that says I do not deserve to be taken care of or respected (in fact, that I am spoiled and that is why I want so much attention). Of course, by now, I am subtle in the ways I seek attention, sometimes to the point where the call goes unheard. It is very difficult for me to ask for help, and I don't usually accept it trustingly or gratefully. I think I liked Buddhism and the Toltec work because they emphasize loving and working on yourself, rather than looking for love, attention, or care from another person or power. This message, obviously, is not such a subtle request for attention. Anyhow, I wanted to ask for your support as I go through this process. I am taking the opportunity of this experience to feel my emotions as they arise, so I may not be in the best of moods when you see me, and, hopefully, I won't be trying to hide it. It is very difficult for me to know how to behave right now, and I may be a bit "heady", passive/aggressive, spacey, withdrawn, or, heaven forbid, arrogantly superior: These are the masks I have learned so well. The core of this particular wound holds a lot of anger, and so that may come out, too. I am asking for patience and openness from you all. Help me to be aware of my emotional state by being sensitive to my body language and energy. You don't have to tell me what you see, but just understand that I may not be aware of it myself. I want to be a teacher of the Toltec work and the other wisdom I have received, and I realize that to do that I need your support. I also need to learn how to use the expression of my integrity in this role. I want to practice first being in my integrity with the Eagles, and maybe even erring on the side of messiness in order to hear and accommodate the voice of my child. I hope that I can become more able to openly express my love somewhere in this process, too. I realize that, in a certain way, I have been hiding from you all, as I have hidden from myself. Perhaps you have seen this clearer than I have, or maybe I have managed to fool you, too. I am sure that I have judged all your emotions and drama many times and I am sorry for this. So there is my latest thought. I don't know where I will be with it when I see you next. I am so grateful to have a group of people I can share this process with. I hear the parasite in the background judging me for taking up so much space with this long message, but I know that I deserve it. Thanks for your attention and your love. Blessings, Jordan Read the February 2001 moon’s meditation to deepen your inner connection... Back to This Moon's Article Next Article